Learned already that Grief comes and goes in waves. Woke up at 430 am, dreaming about being with my sister and somehow in there, the reality of Craig passing away. Waking up, as the wave hits again. He really isn't here. Wiping tears from my own face is a big challenge. Always scared to start crying because I won't stop. I rang my call bell, got my chair unplugged and opened my YouTube channel. I forgot about what Craig tried to tell me a month ago he was leaving. If you watch the video below, imagine me saying as I watched it this morning, "Anita, shut Up!" It was clear that my dear husband was slowly being prepared to leave. As I watched, I seemed to be desperate to make him stay if I could. Definitely feeling selfish as I heard myself. As you can see and hear He was in distress yet never complained or showed anything negative. No doubt, he was ready to to go Home.
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